umm....still no title

the light
so bright
so painful
only when
staring
everything
gets hazy
and white
only then
i see
you
though not clearly
again
and i'm never sure
if it's me
or if it's you

dammit IB !

if i'm such a downer, people wont come to either of my blogs.
i do want to post this on the other one.
maybe one day i will.


anyway...

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i remember when we were much better.
i remember when i actually felt bad for other people.
i remember when i couldnt understand why people - so many people - couldnt make it work.
i remember thinking that if the worst was as bad as it was going to get, we were in good shape.
i remember always being afraid of jinxing us.
i remember thinking of tight circles.
i remember calm.
i remember thick and thin. and how it never seemed to matter.
i remember not caring about so much for so long.
i remember defying gravity. effortlessly.

stone

It used to be
Crystal prisms
Fading
Into the shady colors
Of night
Of forgotten
A rock
Pounding
Dulling
The sharp edges
Of the past
Now
The hazy face
Comes into focus
Now it is a stone
That hones the edge
To a fine instrument
A razor-sharp scalpel
Dissecting my life
While I still
Breathe
And bleed
And remember
Profusely

i cant do titles. they stress me out.

And when you say
That
I didn’t
Have it
To do it
Maybe you’re right
But it only serves me
Notice
That I wasted
And should not
Any more
So you won
Yours
But a piece
No longer
Yours